Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Taking a Plunge

If you read this blog regularly, you'll know that I've been absent from The Lark Journals for over a year now. Thank goodness, Kathy and Margaret are still blogging regularly and have kept the journal alive while I was away. I am so grateful they did, very appreciative of their kindness and dedication. Also, for their unending support. You see, I have needed all of those items, things these amazing ladies have given so freely.

My brave husband recently lost his battle with a monstrous disease. He was courageous, valiant and loving throughout the ordeal but in the end we didn't have the outcome we all prayed so hard for. I hate it that such a good, kind, brilliant man has had his life cut horribly short. He was my best friend, the joy in my world, and I miss him more than I can begin to say.

So, now you know where I've been. But thanks to my fellow Larks, I've got a warm "nest" to return to, so I'm back. I won't try to pull the wool over your eyes. There have been moments these past weeks when I can barely think and am certain I have nothing to say to anyone. Still, there are hours, more as time passes, actually, when I feel somewhat like myself. So, a blogging I will go.

Thank you, Kathy and Margaret, for having me back. Thank you for keeping this place alive. Mostly, thank you for your friendship and support. I don't know what I'd do without you. You are the best.

It's beginning to look like spring here--finally!--on the farm. Vito's bees are waking up, there are buds on the fruit trees and the vineyard will soon begin to unfurl its slumbering leaves. Flowers will be blooming, baby birds will be taking their first tentative flights and warm breezes will caress my cheeks as I watch dragonflies' reflections on the pond. There will be peace.

I'm praying I will heal. I'm on this journey so unexpectedly it's difficult to know how the path will unfold. All I know is that I'm going to keep putting one foot before the other, and if you'd like to see how this goes I'm willing to share it with you. Honestly? I need the companionship, so please check back now and again. I'll give glimpses of life on this beautiful farm with you and perhaps we'll all be enriched by the experience. That's my hope, anyway.

Thank you for stopping by. Have a peaceful day. I know that's what I'm going to strive for!

13 comments:

Kathleen said...

Love having you back and do want to share your journey with you!!!

Sarita said...

Kathy, you are a rock, thank you. It feels good to have taken this first step. :)

Vonnie Davis said...

Shakespeare wrote, "Praising what is lost, makes the remembrance dear." I think the sweet memories you have of your husband and your life together will always be dear to you. Embrace that. Embrace it and move forward one step, one blog, one written paragraph at a time. Healing comes eventually. Friends, as you've stated, help. You have much to share with us all, and we welcome your thoughts.

margaret blake said...

How wonderful that you are back with us. Welcome home - I so look forward to reading about life on the farm, you write to poetically and I have missed your posts.

Blessings xxxxx

Sandy Cody said...

Sarita, I am so sorry for your loss and will add my prayers to the many I am sure are going out for you. What a lovely post you wrote - a reminder to all of us not to take the people we love for granted. I'm glad you mentioned this blog on Avaloners, glad that I found it.

Autumn Jordon said...

A beautiful blog. My heart goes out to you. My DH and friend is going through a trial now, and I have an inking of how you feel. Somedays I don't want to talk to anyone--just focus on taking care of him. Often, I turn to my writing just to keep sane.

Keep the memories close, tilt your face to the sun and know you were truly loved.
HUGS

jrlindermuth said...

Condolences on your loss, Sarita. Treasure those memories.

Susan Macatee said...

So sorry to hear of your loss, Sarita. But welcome back to the writing community. I'm sure writing will help you to eventually heal.

Leigh D'Ansey said...

Wishing you well, Sarita.

Dru said...

Every time I see a blog post from you, Sarita, I smile. The baby steps on your journey is a good one.

Linda Hope Lee said...

Sarita, I am sorry to hear of your loss. I hope your return to writing will help you through this sad time.
Linda Hope Lee

Anonymous said...

Hey there
So great to see you back to some sort of routine. You have a lot of support out there.
Love
Aussie Jude xx

Roni said...

Thank you for sharing your difficult time with us. May your husband rest in peace, and I hope you find comfort in the good memories.